By Roseanne Peña, Live At Choice Starfisher
When I started out in my career, my goals were personal satisfaction and to make the kind of money that would support my dreams. But my fears got in the way.
My youthful aspirations were to be “top dog” — a director, vice president, or even own my own business. I used to think, “If I work long hours, do everything that is asked of me, show that I am capable of doing it all, I can move up in title. When I move up in title, by default, I will be compensated for it.” Much to my surprise, it didn’t work out that way. I was doing all that I thought was necessary to move up but the money just wasn’t coming fast enough.
As my life progressed, I came to realize that I was becoming overrun with debilitating fears like, “What if I can’t support myself?” When I became a single mom, I had more obligations and more worry and again, the money wasn’t coming fast enough. Before I knew it, I was lying awake at night consumed with the worry that I would not be able to make ends meet. The repercussions of these worries became overwhelming. The career I once loved began to feel like a trap. I couldn’t find a way out, and my fear only increased. I was giving all my power to the fear and the fear was running my life.
Through the Live At Choice programs I have learned to separate my fears from reality. What is different now is that I know the true source of my fears, and through this realization I live free of fear. Because I no longer choose to give my power to fear, I see more options than I could before. In fact, my career path has changed. I was free to join my family’s business, and I communicate my needs freely therein. I have a greater opportunity to make more money than I ever thought possible, and I am able to do so from a home-based office, which gives me more time with my son. I no longer lie awake at night fearful of not making ends meet. I am now grounded in the powerful belief that money works for me. Having this belief empowers me, not my fear, to be the decision maker in my financial affairs.